All I have to say is ARGGHHH!

So generally I am very happy now a days because of my enrollment in school. Plus you know Dave has been working and we are trying to find a place to move to. And yesterday was awesome! Dave and I spent the evening together shopping-we went to Kohl's to get him new work clothes and then walmart for my school supplies. I love seeing my husband happy and getting something for himself for once. He usually spoils me! :)

But today I have just been frustrated! My mother let me borrow money yesterday to help Dave get his new work clothes and to help pay for our car payment; but today she is basically giving me a guilt trip for giving me the money. Her fiance has been bitchy all day about money and other crap (Example-my kitty cats) but he went and bid a job for his tree service business. So he will be bringing in over a thousand dollars like next week. I just hate this atmosphere sometimes! Its like a dark, heavy blackness of negativity and self centered people! My sisters never listen or clean up, my mom is totally bi-polar but wont admit it! And of course she wants me to help with her wedding planning-which is fine but when she found out that having a company professionally print the invites instead of us making them, she wanted to order them. She showed and told her fiance about it and he kinda freaked cause they have already spent 100 on supplies at Michael's. She just never listens to me but wants my impute. I'm sick of my opinion not mattering anymore because now her fiance seems to ALWAYS be right! ARGGGHHHH! Frustrating! Plus there is a lot of jealously cause she really didn't want to sit down with me to go over my wedding planning-no one was really involved except my husband, my mother-in-law and me. It hurt me really bad which is why we eloped! I just cant wait until school starts and we are out of here! I just need to peace!

The Creation of Beauty is Art

So for once I'm actually gonna write a happy blog! As some of you may know (I don't really know if many read my blog) that I have been soul searching. A lot of it has to do with my career choice and path. I love skin, skin care and all that implies; I always have and always will. God gave me a gift and a love for skin. Now that sounds weird but I believe that the little and big things we love or are talented at are all God's purpose for us. And He made me with a love for skin. BUT lately I have been thinking I also want to go to school for Cosmetology. I went before-spend two months in cosmetology school and basically flaked out on it. I dont really know why; I used to think it was because I didn't have a true passion for it but now I think I was just scared. But now I am ready and I really think I would be great at hair, skin and nails. So I plan to attend cosmetology school for a year, get my license and then go to school for esthetics's. I will be double licensed and killer good. I'll be a double threat-he he he. I will be able to build a higher clientele and ultimately make more money. Money shouldn't be what pulls us to our calling and it shouldn't control our life but it is important. We need it to live and survive. I dont want to be a millionaire and I know I probably never will be. I dont want to be famous or drive a Bentley or live in a 4.5 million dollar home. I just want a nice ranch size home, a reliable car, money for my bills (and of course a little extra for my purse, makeup and book addiction) money in my my savings for my children and to be able to support and take care of my family. For those of you who dont know my husband is disabled. He worked for the first 2 and half years of our relationship but finally he had to give in. He has epilepsy, anxiety, depression and kidney disease. He is such a strong man though, he never lets his illnesses get him down and he never complains. I have to tell him to rest or slow down. He is a true survivor (he actually survived Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma cancer) and he is my inspiration and my driving force. He took care of me when I was too depressed to get out of bed or go out and face the world so now I will be his rock. I want to be a woman that my children look up to, a woman that my parents are proud of, the woman God made me to be. His purpose isn't always clear but when it is reveled to us it is amazing! I'm truly happy right now!