Where the Heart is

So today was honestly one of the worst days of my life! My husband has epilepsy and sometimes he has very bad grand mal seizures. Today was no exception. Since Sunday morning my hubby had been having a very bad migraine and today everything went downhill. He was laying on the couch and started to have a small seizure. So at first I didn't think much of it but after 5 minutes he still hadn't came out of it. So my mom called 911 and we had an ambulance rushed to us. Now I have had to call an ambulance for him many times so I wasn't very freaked out. I thought they would come, stop his seizure and take him to our local ER. Well after about 7 minutes of them being here I started to notice something was very wrong. And I was right; his oxygen levels were too low and they were unable to bring him out of the seizure. One of the paramedics even started looking scared. Then she kept calling for the fire department to be dispatched here asap and then she called to have air vac flown in. That's when I lost it! I started crying hysterically and hyperventilating. Finally after Dave being in a seizure for over 20 minutes they brought him out of it and took him to the helicopter. Where they land is in a field right next to our house so I was able to watch them load him and take off.

Thankfully now Dave is fine. He was admitted to the hospital and is in the best care. This whole thing made me see things very differently. We all take things for granted and I have took my marriage with Dave for granted. At the thought of losing him I broke, I saw my life without him. I saw no children, no dream house that we had bought ourselves and made our home. So now I  know I will start doing things differently, I will appreciate him more and be a better wife, the wife he deserves. Because he treats me like his queen! I love him so much and I know God was testing me. I will be better for Dave and for God! I know where my heart it and it is in Dave's hands!